Feels.........

"Saat kamu kehilangan yang kamu cintai, mereka tak pernah meninggalkanmu. Mereka pindah ke tempat istimewa dalam hatimu. Dia akan selalu ada disana."
"Aku tak ingin dia dihatiku. Aku ingin dia disini bersamaku."

"I may not always know if you are hurt, I may not always know if you are sad, I may not always know if you are confused, but one thing I hope you know, I'm here whenever you need me."

How Could You

For all the things that you said
For all the lines that we played
For all the very best dates
How could you do this to me
The things we did to stay sane
The walks we had in the rain
The places we used to hang
How could you do this to me
Oh well, look at me now I'm falling in pieces
I don't know what to do now
I'm lost within this fire inside me
For all the love that we share
For all the times that we blend
For all the path we walk down
How could you do this to me
The laughter under the star
The time you slept in my car (*ganti->The time you hug me so tight)
The people we made fun of
How could you do this to me ~

"Semakin aku berusaha nglupain kamu,semakin susah buat aku nglupain kamu" "Kamu seenaknya dateng ke kehidupanku dan pergi, dateng, pergi lagi, jangan janji-janji""Aku tu capek, nungguin kamu, harus lupain kmu. Kamu dateng ngasih harapan, trus pergi. Kamu tu gak jelas, aku capek sama yang gak jelas. Aku mau yg jelas-jelas aja"

Mili dan Nathan

Too many ~ (1)

Kenapa "too many"?

Karna emang terlalu banyak yang pengen aku ceritain, tapi sayangnya aku bingung mau mulai darimana dan aku udah lupa beberapa diantaranya, huehehehe .____.v

Sebenernya udah dari lama itu aku mau post banyak, dari mulai abis WKS kemaren, tapi ya gimana ya orang sibuk sih *sigh* wkwkwk

Dari mulai H-1 WKS u.u

WKS (Wahana Kreasi Siswa) itu acara semacam pensi yang setiap tahun diadakan di SMA N 1 Magelang. Nah, panitia dari acara ini tuh dari OSKA (OSIS dan MPK), dan kebetulan juga aku masih diberi kesempatan sama Allah SWT buat jadi panitia (?) Waktu itu aku nginep di rumahnya omku, tepatnya di Jalan Ikhlas, belakang SMP 8 gitu deh. Dan......banyak kucing broh, ada 3 kucing anggora ._. Eh tapi aku gak takut kucing kok, tapi aku agak ilfil sekarang sama kucing disana, kenapa? Karna waktu itu aku lagi makan dan kucingnya e** dengan suara yang ohmygod! menurunkan selera makan seketika -____- kejadiaanya waktu aku mau berangkat ke acara WKS (hari H-nya).

Ohiya, malemnya kirain kan bakal sampe jam 10 ke atas kayak tahun kemaren, eh tapi baru jam 8.an udah pada pulang. Agak boring juga sih, jadi aku juga ikutan pulang jam setengah 9.an. Dan saat aku baru keluar dari WWP, sekitar sampe Artos, kakak kelas sekaligus kakak angkat (*eh) maksudnya kakak kelas yang deket sama aku dan udah kayak kakak sendiri dateng. Dia sms "him, kamu dimana? Aku di WWP nih, ayo ketemu :3" Nyesel banget jadinya aku udah pulang duluan, kita memang tak "berjodoh" -_____-

Paginya aku bangun jam 4 dan langsung mandi sampe sekitar jam setengah 5.an itu, trus ganti baju dan blablabla... sampe jam 5 lebih,hehehe ._.v

Dan...WKS !!!!! :D

alhamdulillah acaranya lancar, nih ada beberapa foto :3 Eh aku juga foto sama kak ninit lho,wkwk. Kita udah deket...banget, tapi baru foto berapa kali yaaaa? .____. tragis,hahaha

AWESOME :3 hahaha

to be continue yah ;)

himpret

Tonight...

Emmm.. 
Aku gak tau kenapa tapi...

Aku kangen beberapa orang malam ini :(

kangeeeeennnnnnnn banget :((

I Swear I'll Change :O

Ini lirik lagu dari Attack Attack! yang aku pikir "It is SO DAMN COOL!!! :D"
Some of the lyrics express my feeling :')
Yeah,although the kind of the song is Hardcore ._.v but, I have something to tell to you...
The lyrics in the hardcore song almost all of them is so cool, so touch exactly, but... the music makes it rather bad :s
This! Enjoy at thisssss :D

Seeing everyone's true face
Makes me wish they would keep their masks on.
Cause I don't want to know
Who you really are
I thought you would've learned your lesson by now.

True face exposed
Dark motives in the mind
Was listening too scary for you?
You haven't changed, you never will.
You never will

You and I will never be the same
You said you tried, but you never changed.
You can hide and say you're not to blame
I thought you would've learned your lesson by now.
I was wrong
Something in me still has love for you
I don't know why
Everyone is not as good as they seem
Trust in me, trust in me

I never knew
That lying came so natural to you
Cause I can't bare to see
The man you're gonna be
I thought you would've learned your lesson by now
..............

What do you think? :o That's cool, right? Hahaha
The point is............
"Everyone has their true face, yeah..true face. It didn't depends for something or someone, and that's the people actually. And better if we would take a lesson from all of the things that happen to us. Keep smiling, keep dreaming, keep coolin' (?), and calm :)"


himpret

This Is A Story Of Some Persons Who Has "A Story" :)

Bingung ya sama judulnya? Wkwkwk,sama dong aku juga =='

Emm,ya ini sebenernya sebuah cerita asli, ya.. this is a true story

BASED ON TRUE STORY!

Check this out :) Aku gak mau terlihat frontal atau apa,yang jelas ini bener-bener cerita yang pengen aku bagi. Sedikitpun gak ada maksud apa-apa u.u

It's just a short conversation,but for me that's an amazing thing that we do since that 'tragedy' u.u

since 13rd, I left nothing and you did the same 'thing'. Then, I just thought how's my real fault and how can I make this situation better..

I pray to the God,I asked to him/her 'is that true? How's the matter?' I always hope that it was only nightmare and it can be back like the first time..

and almost 1 week I wake up every night around 2 p.m only for isolating and praying,refresh my mind, and try to to understand the real condition. I know it's sounds so strange maybe but... I don't know Ican do those thing

And I'm crying alone tonight,feels so desperate of all. I don't know how I must face this, and finally..I fall.

Luckily, is there any person cares to me and they want to listen my 'voice'. Alright then, I get some advices and it's make me feels better

Next, I promise to myself "I don't wanna make this same kinda hurt again,especially to......." then, I try to fix my mind and I try to have a certain attitude like when there's not problem around us

And I..emm we try to find a good time to speak each other,tell each other. I'm so worried,afraid,confused :s I don't know how I start the speech

And until now, we haven't get the perfect time to speak. yeah, we often make a plan but..it's not happen. And one thing! I have something to talk and I'm very dissappointed to......

It's a shame that it had to be this way, it's not enough to say I'm sorry

Tell me I was wrong, don't blame yourself u.u

terima kasih untuk kata- kata akan nasihat yang tulus yang kamu ajarkan kepadaku :)

terimkasih telah memberiku pelajaran untuk menjadi diri sendiri sesuai yang kita inginkan dan berani untuk berkata tidak jika diperlukan

and likes what I'm writing about last afternoon "It's a shame that it had to be this way
It's not enough to say I'm sorry" All I had to say is goodbye, maybe we're better off this way :)

I know what you think,emm..not exactly but I know the "big lines",so please tell me I was wrong. Don't be afraid, I don't wanna get angry, I just dissappointed why you didn't tell me 'yesterday'

Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this so easily? You make it hard to smile because,you make it hard to breathe. Why did you broke all of my confidence to you? It's you or it's me?

I can't speak, I can't make a sound, I can't believe of what the 'Friday tragedy'. I know I've been selfish, I know I've been foolish,but..look through that and you will see...emm something different

my tears run down, I know I'm not the one to blame. But all I have is only to say I'm sorry if you angry with me, I know where's the fault. I wish that I could take it back

LAST~ Hear me now.. All I can say is I am not afraid of the world that I am trying to put you in,I fight everyday but I am to blame. I am not innocent,but I am not afraid..

Sometimes, it's hard to face the real facts. But you ALWAYS try to face it and accept this, because not all things you want will be come true and sometimes the way that passed it isn't easy and have many blend.

So,feel you bleed or you will stay? :)

Hima